stupid reality
Warning - Self-pity alert! - Warning
Months & months ago, I joined an online group. Back then, we talked about a get together that we would have in my area in November. It was such a long way away, but I remember being really, really excited about it, at the time. I couldn’t wait & was really looking forward to it. We were going to have so much fun!
Since then, things have happened that have left me feeling a bit distant from that group. I’ve been overwhelmed by the reality that they are not my friends, but are just people who share common life situations (and, even then, not really that much anymore, either) & who are posting on the same message board. Many are not even in step families anymore. And, we certainly have a wide divergence when it comes to personalities & values. We just all happen to have found the same place to type stuff to each other.
So, now, here comes November & they are planning the get together. And, I’m feeling sad about it. Not sad like I want to go. But, sad as I’m reminded that the warm friendly dream that I was so excited about back in the spring turned out not to be real. I wish that had been real.
