I’m going to miss co-sleeping
I know that, all along, I’ve told myself not to worry - that when puberty & peer pressure kick in, they’re going to start choosing to sleep on their own.
And, more and more often, now, they are.
Two nights ago, Shelby was sleeping in his own bed (it was dad’s night off, though, so we had asked him to start there anyway). He woke with bad wheezing at 1:30am or so, while dad & I were still awake in the living room. He sat with us for a while there. We gave him benadryl & let him breathe cold outside night air. And, after he relaxed & started breathing easier, although still rattly, I slept with him sitting up beside me on the couch, until I finally brought us both to ‘the big bed’ at about 3:30am.
Last night, he chose to sleep in his own bed. And, I said, without thinking first “Oh, now I’m going to be worried about your breathing all night” He looked worried, then… I tried to cover up with “Oh, you’ll be fine. You’ve been fine all day. And, even when it started being rattly last night, you woke up & got us. I’m sure you’ll do the same tonight, if you need me.”
Then, he went to bed. And, later, I went to bed, after checking to make sure he was breathing OK.
And, I, eventually, fell asleep - but still worried a bit, first. And, he did wake & come to my bed sometime before morning.
But, he’s doing it. He’s choosing to sleep in his own bed more often. He’s waking up in his own bed more often, too. And, I’m sure that as the weeks & months pass, he’ll eventually be sleeping on his own all night every night.
And, so will Annie.
And, then, I’ll miss them, but they’ll be teenagers and, even if they did sleep by me, it would be a little weird & uncomfortable, probably. They wouldn’t be little any more.
I’ll miss that.
awwwww =(
Comment by Robin — October 22, 2009 @ 1:20 pm